{"id":1804,"date":"2004-03-31T14:35:15","date_gmt":"2004-03-31T12:35:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/levenmetals.nl\/dagboek-maart-2004\/"},"modified":"2025-09-24T13:58:51","modified_gmt":"2025-09-24T11:58:51","slug":"diary-march-2004","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/levenmetals.nl\/en\/diary-march-2004\/","title":{"rendered":"Diary March 2004"},"content":{"rendered":"
Needed<\/h2>\n
I was restless last night. It sounds stupid, but I lost sleep over a party Sara and I are organising. People have taken issue with the location we picked (Avifauna), especially a bunch of men who left all of the planning to us. But that still doesn\u2019t explain why I was so upset. I couldn\u2019t sleep and even cried a bit. This morning, I wrote a ruthless letter to the aforementioned gentlemen, which made me feel a lot better. Maybe I was upset because I was unable to verbally defend my choices. Maybe it was because I had vested my happiness on this one dinner party. Maybe it was just me being a sore loser and being upset that I didn\u2019t receive unanimous support. I threw the towel in the ring. They\u2019ll figure it out. I felt so alone. <\/p>\n
The day prior I had been elated, for the wrong reasons. Floor had an English presentation about America. Despite the fact that she had the entirety of spring break to prepare it, it still wasn\u2019t finished on Sunday evening. That was when I took action. The wrong thing to do when raising a child, but I loved it. Why? Being needed, having an impending deadline, I love it. We wrote a great, easily readable presentation with great pacing. Floor was thankful, although she did edit some parts of the text. Bye bye pacing. Whatever, it\u2019s her presentation after all. \nI think these stories are similar. Apparently, I\u2019m so desperate to be \u201cneeded\u201d that I immediately take the reigns and forget about everyone but myself while working on anything. That\u2019s what happens when one has to be the source of their own motivation. Every day starts with the question of \u201cwhat to do?\u201d I\u2019m usually useless, so the feeling of being \u201cneeded\u201d is amazing, even if the other party doesn\u2019t always enjoy my input. It\u2019s in my nature. I\u2019m just a bit of a taskmaster. <\/p>\n
Into town<\/h2>\n
I rarely visit our town centre. Last Saturday I did, with my sister-in-law Netty. I hyped it up in my mind, but our main shopping street, the Haarlemmerstraat, is nothing special. Just bunch of hasty people carrying heavy bags and stuffing their faces with food while they go. To think I used to be one of those people. Luckily we walked on and found a few alleyways with nicer shops, walking by churches and fragrant market stands. It\u2019s those moments that make Leiden alright in my book.<\/p>\n
Head cold<\/h2>\n
For the first time in years, I\u2019ve caught a proper cold; runny nose, sneezing and lots of mucus. I split my lip by sneezing a few times. I can\u2019t stay in bed, but by the time I\u2019m downstairs, snot is oozing down my face with nobody to wipe it off. How I miss my arms and legs. My nights got better after putting a cut onion on my nightstand (useful tip from my physical therapist). I\u2019m tired of having blocked sinuses, but I think the worst has passed.<\/p>\n
Homepage<\/h2>\n
My website has been steadily growing in the background. The accessibility of my diary has seen the greatest improvement. Now it actually allows perusal. I\u2019ve been editing things too, the chapter on alternative medicine, for instance, is a lot more realistic now. I\u2019m excited to see what\u2019s going to happen to my site\u2019s new guestbook. Please, by all means, leave a comment. The person responsible for my new website is Adrie den Hertog, my sister-in-law. She has a company that has been building and maintaining websites for over a year now: Zin In Webdesign www.zininwebdesign.nl.<\/a> Adrie, I couldn\u2019t have asked for a better birthday present. <\/p>\n
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